“It’s a strange thing, how you can love somebody, how you can be all eaten up inside with needing them — and they simply don’t need you. That’s all there is to it, and neither of you can do anything about it. And they’ll be the same way with someone else, and someone else will be the same way about you and it goes on and on — this desperate need — and only once in a rare million do the same two people need each other.”—Madeleine L’Engle (via dinwos)
Today went smoothly. I drop Edon off at the sitter’s first, and when we got to the door, he got sad and shed this big ole crocodile tear and said, “I miss my sister…” So cute! When I got back to the car, I told Kiera. We drove to school and little miss Kie was ready. Walked in, dropped her off and went to work. I picked her up after and she was all smiles. She doesn’t know any of the kids in her class so but she seemed to have had a good day and said she was excited for tomorrow. When we got to the sitter to pick up lil man I told her that she should give him a hug because he missed her. So she hid on the side of the car and surprised him with a big old bear hug. He was so happy to see her. :-) That brother and sister bond they have makes me so happy.
I always seem to have some worry, some stress in the back of my mind. It just bottles up and like a can of soda that just got dropped and then picked up and shook, it explodes. And then, a calm comes over me and I just let it go. There are just some things I cannot control. And I can see the end of the tunnel, it just seems further away sometimes. I just don’t know what to do sometimes, its not like I’m doing anything wrong, its just that something always seems to come up before I seemingly get some relief. And I don’t have too many I can express this to. Some relief needs to come soon, I feel like I’m drowning.
“I love unmade beds. I love when people are drunk and crying and cannot be anything but honest in that moment. I love the look in people’s eyes when they realize they’re in love. I love the way people look when they first wake up and they’ve forgotten their surroundings. I love the gasp people take when their favorite character dies. I love when people close their eyes and drift to somewhere in the clouds. I fall in love with people and their honest moments all the time. I fall in love with their breakdowns and their smeared makeup and their daydreams. Honesty is just too beautiful to ever put into words.”—(via peachyogurt)